I wish Heaven had a phone, so I could hear your voice again. I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought of you yesterday, and the days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories, and a picture in a frame.



I love you mama, I miss you so much. I can't believe it's almost been two months. I'll see you in my dreams, <3

my graditude.

nothing has ever felt this shakey in my hands, than your life.
holding you in my arms, has never felt so heavy.
beyond any weight of the world.
you are my world crashing down, caving in, and fading away.
i think about it now, and wonder how i’ll survive through it all without you near. who could i turn to in the most secret of ways, with my hidden desires.
how will our puzzle be made, without that piece?



© K

s.m.w

let me go, let me live my own life. open your arms so i can leave.
watch me fly, so something new can bloom.
you lost your faith, you lost your hope in me. where no trust could lay.
i'm stuck where no one can help, i've left myself alone and in the cold.
i let myself lose my motivational fuel.
i cant go back to claiming some mystical inspiration.
for the first time, i need some guidence along the lines of where to
turn and where i need to keep going.
i am strong, i am soild, i can be stable but i am not built to last forever.
i am stubborn and i will not listen. and i know i'll make you mad, i'll make you hate me. i already make you wish i were never born. i may be disrespectful, and a disappointment, but i am grateful.
i may hate the world, but i crave for your attention. i'm deemed as a bad child, a burden, a leech, i am a disease. a never ending dose of your heart full of pain. i try to live, you wish me dead.
i enjoyed the life i lived, and it led to my close encounter.
you wished to know, you asked my feelings, you wanted in my head and heart. i gave it to you, but you shut me out of myself. you make my heart clench, and my eyes rain, my palms sweat, and my stomach turn. i just wish you could hear through my silence.




© K

i hope you follow me everywhere i go,

http://forbiddenloverr.tumblr.com/


all about you<3

snow globe.

shake me, shake me.
how fast can you break me?
you take me and shake me, and you watch my flakes start to fall.
you wind me up, and set me down, only to hear me cry.
you flip me upside down, slam me on the gronud.
are you wondering how long it takes for me to crack?
sorry to say, i'll never break.
you'll never be able to see, what is inside of me.




© K

unmovable.

so small and helpless, in a room so large.
so stuck in this decrepid place.
so trapped within these walls, just waiting to break free from it all.
that constant boxed up pressure.
nothing that you added, could ever make me feel worse.
so tall and proud, in a room so small.
so unable to move in these broken walls.
so brave to face no one at all, longing to prove something more.
this constant need to move.
no matter how high your head stands.

sanction slipping.

i've been left by one and gathered by another.
living in misery, to witness others.
i've been left to roam the unknown alone, without understanding or explaination.
left to fend for myself, to watch my own back.
and learn on my own with a lack of guidence.
giving me this empty hole scultped to my insides.
draining my body of any real emotion, or thought.
i am empty, and hollow.
an understanding, even to those who have felt similar.
can not conclude to such a feeling of anxiety.



© K

if you're reading this...

each pedal that flies off my palm.
is just another piece of me that you take from me.
a part of me that wants you to;
love me like i love you,
want me like i want you,
need me like i need you,
desire me like i desire you,
help me like i try to help you,
believe in me like i believe in you.

want whats best for me like i try to offer you.



© K