s.m.w

let me go, let me live my own life. open your arms so i can leave.
watch me fly, so something new can bloom.
you lost your faith, you lost your hope in me. where no trust could lay.
i'm stuck where no one can help, i've left myself alone and in the cold.
i let myself lose my motivational fuel.
i cant go back to claiming some mystical inspiration.
for the first time, i need some guidence along the lines of where to
turn and where i need to keep going.
i am strong, i am soild, i can be stable but i am not built to last forever.
i am stubborn and i will not listen. and i know i'll make you mad, i'll make you hate me. i already make you wish i were never born. i may be disrespectful, and a disappointment, but i am grateful.
i may hate the world, but i crave for your attention. i'm deemed as a bad child, a burden, a leech, i am a disease. a never ending dose of your heart full of pain. i try to live, you wish me dead.
i enjoyed the life i lived, and it led to my close encounter.
you wished to know, you asked my feelings, you wanted in my head and heart. i gave it to you, but you shut me out of myself. you make my heart clench, and my eyes rain, my palms sweat, and my stomach turn. i just wish you could hear through my silence.




© K