hookups.

I just started at a new school, this week.
I have no one, I sit alone, I eat alone, I don't talk to anyone.
Two days being there, no one has even spoken to me.
I go home and kids from the school have started adding me on myspace.
Go figure.


Andy;
-was the first person to talk to me. It was kind of weird, just slightly awkward.
Short, big ears, adoring eyes and a huge smile that never left his face.
I secretly fell for him.
I knew he liked me, but I felt it alone.
He became on of my best friends, I talked to him all the time.
We kissed in the 9th grade, and it was the funniest thing in the world to me.
My best friend Hazel told my mom, she got on my AIM and told him that if he ever kissed me again she'd break both of his legs.
Didn't stop him, but every time he saw my mom he ran the other way.
I was almost in love with the idea of us. But again, I left it alone.
He got a girlfriend, who was a close friend at the time as well.
She actually asked for my blessing to date him, because she knew about is.
We always flirt, and get handsy with each other but nothing ever comes out of it.
He's one of those, all talk type of guys.

Love him dearly nonetheless.

Michael;
-yet another girl I hated back in middle school, became really close to me later on in the years. I could never be sure if he was hitting on me to be honest. He was best friends with my best friend Anthony. And he had always warned me to stay away from him. Naturally I can only hide my curiosity for so long. We talked a lot, about life and school and other personal things. But of course, sex because a topic as discussion too. I flashed him once at school and ever since then we'd always fool around in class when ever the opportunity arose. Touching, grabbing, holding, playing. And then I left, and then he wanted me even more. He'd tell me how much he missed me and how he wanted me so bad. And that's when I let him kiss me. In the hall, when no one was around. Up against the wall, retouching what we left in class.

"ITO" ;
-I met him the summer going into 9th grade and I fell hard on my ass. I was obsessed, trying to talk to him as much as possible, had a bunch of classes with him, tried to always sit next to him and make a point for him to see me. I finally got him after all that work, years later. And it all happened because i helped him pass the first semester of 11th grade, gave him a nice sum of bud, made him go to a football game and the haunted house. That's where it happened. In the corn maze. Walking behind everyone, holding my hand. He grabbed my chin and turned my head and kissed me and we were still walking, falling over almost into the corn where people were hiding to jump out and scare us. It was the biggest accomplishment of my year, boy wise.

How he held my face so gently, how our hands stayed intertwined during the whole night. It's funny. Otto watched me the whole night, stood behind me and watched. In the haunted house Christian walked behind me seeing if I'd get scared and he had his hands on my waist and I could see Michael and "Ito" looking at them with such jealousy they almost glowed green.

As I was leaving, he grabbed me. Pulled me to him and hugged me, lifted my chin again ad kissed me yet again. We stood there for the second time in 10 minutes making out while a group of people watched us.

Jan;
-2 years older than me and I was a sucker. He took me to his house, to watch a movie I never saw. Met his mom, had a smoke, went to his room, got the movie started, off went the lights, and on the bed we were. I laid away, shaky and unsure. He pulled me over to lay right next to him and started tickling me till I rolled onto him and he kissed me and sucked me into him. Trying to wiggle my pants off as I pushed away, he ripped my shirt off and pulled my hair, bit my lips, and clawed at my back. Rolling around like this for what seemed like hours and thank god my phone rang. He stopped, went out for a smoke and I got ready to leave. And that's how we ended.

Tim;
-in some odd twisted way we "dated" but in reality we were just THERE for each other and we sucked face with one another everyday. That's basically it.

Chris;
-as a favor to James, I made a move on Chris.
He's a really sweet kid, no doubt about it. But as lame as you can get when it comes to girls. He's cute don't get me wrong. Kid is just shy as hell. It took me a while. I barely pecked him on his birthday and he just about fell over. Fall Formal night, drunk off our ass at 4AM sitting outside after I changed in front of him. I practically made him kiss me and as the seconds passed he loosened up and then it ended. It was like making out with Adam, again I was an ice cream cone. Majorly gross.